A Precipice

In the last couple months I have found myself approaching a large shift in life. I think this is an important thing to talk about as culture has lost it’s pulse on honoring and valuing these huge changes that inevitably come into each of our lives.

My time at my current job is coming to an end. It has served me well and I am grateful for it, but I know I am feeling called to do something different. So lets talk about what that means.

I have developed a relationship with my intuition in the last couple years after making some big choices in college that I felt were right in my gut. And as I listened to and acted in accordance with this gut feeling it has become clearer to me. It takes time, dedication, and listening closely to the little voice in my head among all the loud ones that is quiet but clear and has intention. When I tune into her she has my heart, my future, and my well being in her best interest. She pushes and challenges me, but also knows how to keep me safe. 

My intuition doesn’t know how to keep me inside the lines, or stay in line with a plan. She is free of societies expectations and the limiting beliefs I have engrained since I was young from my environment and the people around me. She allows me to stray from the line of people I have followed and encourages me to go find the fields full of wildflowers. 

So as I take this jump into the next chapter of my life, allowing the known comforts to take a back seat, I am listening closely to her.

Unfortuantely I have not done a great job at creating space for her to speak, as I am busy visiting family and friends, filling my free time with reading books and writing, being an active proponent in my life rather than a quiet one, giving turn to listening. So as I sit here writing, I hope I can move forward with giving her space to speak as well. This might look like finding a little corner of forest, or a quiet sanctuary alone. Maybe sitting in meditation to give her the full stage, or utilizing yoga as a bridge to find intuitively what feels good to me. Maybe she needs a day, or three, or maybe even just an hour, to speak to me. Unfortunately I have denied her this space until this point, but am hoping in taking a vacation from work I can reconnect. 

This is the type of work I hope to assist others in as they approach their paths. I hope to help others heal their relatoionship with their limiting beliefs and deep doubts. I hope to encourage them to give their inner truths, their inner knowing, a space to speak. Because ultimately we all have a connection to the deeper meaning of why we are here, but have taken the time to hear the whisper in all the other noise? Or do we wait until it is shouting at us, crying for us to allow change and embrace it in more productive ways? Until we hit that rock bottom where we absolutely cannot take it anymore and crawl our way to change.

So the next time you find yourself at a fork in the road, decisions upon you, perhaps looking to everyone else in your life for an answer of what to do… know that the truth is inside you if you allow it to be. If you choose to give it the opportunity to be.